Chin Wey ™

recent days arent great at all...im very very upset and dissapointed of what is happening...i dont dare to ask nor request something from my friends now...

finding myself putting interest in new activity, i found out that i couldnt spare my time out to match my friend's time going there. therefore, i have to sacrifice it though the interest is still there. well, who doesnt want a better body figure? moreover, many schoolwork bundled up day by day and i really cant spare much time doing it...assignments, fyp...and i couldnt figure out on how to spare time everyday for it as a lot of time needed to collect information on things going on...if there's time, i couldnt match them with my friend's...do you think i still able to make it rather than sacrificing it?

the tasks ongoing really makes me very very very upset...i totally giving up all...the assignments...the fyp...i dont dare to think anymore for requesting time from them...i felt myself failure, fail in planning, fail in organising, fail in everything...i dont dare to ask for presence, all i can do and able is just informing...i tried my best, make things the best, but these became the past...im now tired, disable, not daring, upset, giving up, and just let things be aside...im tired when there's no support, im tired because i failed to make things best and putting myself in the negative perspective...

i never felt myself giving everything up...i never putting myself in dont care situation before...but this is the first time...it is like a big big well, i fell down but not knowing how to climb back up to return back to normal...i cant find a string to support me climbing up nor any support...i cant make things better is my fault, i cant organising well is my fault...i shall let the nature decides everything perhaps?

who can throw me a string to let me climb back to the land? or just let me stay inside the well?