when...it gives various meanings. it can be asking for the specific time, it can also be a "what if" statement...
enquire for specific time doesnt seems trouble for me, but a "what if" "when" does a trouble for me...though dislike it, but i encountered it...still i have no idea on the solution...perhaps i shall say i have zero control on it...the authority is not with me. once decide on any choices given, it definitely gives an unwell feeling to the other choice. and at this time, i have to decide which is more important to me...im kinda have the feeling of escaping from making a stand from the choices, but in my heart, still i wanna face it as it is the place where i born...everytime i dont hope to see it, it still happens annually...i have no idea on how to solve it. when questioned, im kinda numb and dumb, unknown of what to say, im speechless...
to me, i have really zero idea on it...
the new year holiday gonna end soon for me, gotta get back to the track to finish up my project and follow up my studies again...gotta hard work soon after this...hoping the progress gonna be smooth and steady...not to forget greatest appreciation to him for working together to achieve it...
day two of the new year, the day i spend most of the time at home during the new year, as there will be a dinner to celebrate my grandma's birthday later. these two days has been tiring days, my afternoon time becomes my nap time...probably there's nothing for me to do except gambling, hahaha...
this new year bring significant meaning for me...things that i have worried about has found its way out. i was afraid for this spring festival to arrive, there's something overwhelmed me for sometime, and finally it has its own solution at the end...perhaps i have been worrying for this too much, as i felt relieved alot when i acknowledged that the matter has been solved...i feel like the spring do really come now...
the arrival of spring also bring some changes to me as well, physically and mentally...putting myself to attempt wearing necklace and ring are something extraordinary for me as all the while i have just wearing religion bracelet. months back my friend helped me bought a purple crystal bracelet from kedah and that is my accessories at that time...now i have attempted to use necklace and ring as part of my accessories and the result seems good for me. at least i have some changes in physically...apart, i dyed my hair into the colour that i have never attempt before, red! initially kinda afraid of the redness of the colourant as it stated is rose colour, however the result is more to maroon colour and i kinda like this colour too...something that is new to me as well...on the other side, the spring arrival too brings me something different on the soul part...something different...
things should be getting different now...i have to plan the next stage of my life...but i dont have any for now...what should i do? i cant plan nor for anything now, unfinished job still in my hand...problems still wandering around me...i have to think of a time to clear my mind and think where should i go for the next stage of my life...
happy rabbit year to all... may the new year bring lucks and happiness throughout the year... ^^
minutes to go before the end of the year of tiger, according to the lunar calendar, and i grab these moments to blog the happenings in this year...till the last day before i back to hometown for spring holiday, im still busy with the project stuff. though there is some progress, but there are still more and more to go...wanted to discuss about it after i back hometown, but it seems like nobody wants to talk about it during this time...well, i just leave it till see how...somehow is out of my control...i dont want mention much about it now...ideas and thoughts sometimes come across into my mind and i wanted to share with someone before i forget or lost it...
along the progress in my project, some final year students too company us in the laboratory to complete their own projects...
kinda been long time i have not back to my hometown, and following my mum to wet market to buy groceries is something i have not done long time...because the time is too early for me to wake up from the bed...hahaha...and this time have to squeeze with many people as they also rush to fill up their stock for the new year in such early in the morning...
may the year of rabbit will bring prosperous and good luck all the year to me...
