its the last day of the year...kinda hilarious to you and ashamed to myself when any of your new year eve plans do not work at all. Everyone is going with their own plan, without counting you in; even though you have planned it earlier on...when you thought that you gonna spend the new year eve all by yourself, facing the computer, with 4 walls of your room, or your house alone, with the sound of the table fan spinning breaks the silence of the night of all nights, and your mouth doesnt throw any voice out...unexpected things happened. i dont know how to describe it. just let it be...
well, sometimes of all the things happened, they are just making me even reluctant to organising activities anymore, since i will not get the activity to run eventually...i will just let it be, let it be...
it's almost the end of 2012, and the world is still there. Thank god! although the world is revived, yet im still single, walking by myself...i wonder should i wish for this in 2013? lol...
till today im still hoping for a real-life story that always appears in the drama. once couple of us suddenly came into a discussion of how would our dream wedding would be. and i recalled a wedding scene that i watched in the korean drama, save your last dance for me. a garden-themed wedding reception, with olive wreath on the head, with a small white house as the background would be a dream wedding reception for me. i must be day-dreaming again...lol
out of my realization, i have worked for a complete whole year this year. time really flies, without awaiting you a single second. it's kinda good to have such a speedo time sometimes...but sometimes procrastination really kills me, some of the resolutions arent achieved this year! the remaining will be carried forward maybe? hahahahahaha...well, sometimes when especially you fell into the well, you just feel like everyday is a working day, even the weekends. you dont feel like giving any single second of chance for your mind to think of something that arent worthy at all. i did fell into such situations for couple of months. luckily the company is in the island, and there's some distance away from my house. otherwise, i might become the workaholic then! working somehow motivates me and directs me to go through my life. probably i have put too much of myself into working now, is not my willingness but somehow it did happen in this way...
there are ups and downs tough in this year...and some of them is still on going, but i'll just let it be, tired of getting involved in all things. im still lack of confident to maintain myself stable even though i am 24, and soon +1 next year, which is really really close. hopefully my new year resolution + outstanding this year would be a great kick start for the year 2013. im gonna rock the year with full of excitement, travels, and fun! happy 2013!
