Chin Wey ™

perhaps im the root cause of all, i should blame myself. being rational, excessively?

thinking that the life must be perfect for all the time, or most of the time, sometimes i am not myself either. attempting to label things with a full stop perfectly, i lose to myself. even when im trying to re-correct of all messy handwriting that i have made, i continuously re-write and re-write. and i may just lose the ink before i can mark the full stop. rationalism and passion for the perfection of many things kill you?

when i first acknowledge myself moving to penang, i realized the house is not equipped with basic needs, and i started to think "can i survive here?". but i try my best to clean the house everyweek, without allowing a single dust to be there. well i admit that i am very particular of the cleanliness of the environment i am. this is perfection.

rationalism always overwhelm me when i started to make any decision, or would it be self-sufficient that actually overwhelm all this? yeah yeah, i admit im just a failure in this aspect, attempting hard to put away all this and move forward to it. hopefully i can make everything work before it is late :)

sounds ridiculous, huh? but it seems like im entering and exiting the reality. well, im looking forward to regain my strength to stay in the reality rather than walking in and out from there. it's easy to walk out from there but terrific task for me to walk in back.

month of july has arrived. the month that supposed not to have any public holiday in my dictionary has turned into different way. Penang's Yang-Dipertuan birthday falls on this month, and im getting holiday for that, sounds good :)

i have finally be the first timer after so many years survived on this planet to step into the neighbouring country, Singapore last month! Sounds hilarious for a Malaysian to say so as it is so much near to us and i only stepped into after being getting so old. well, i got my first passport last year, LOL!

Singapore, a country that we must respect. with its' regulations and return to the community, i feel somehow it's a country that can be lived IF the size expanded 10 to 15 times larger than now, hehe...im trying to imagine driving on the completely flat road without any holes found, just like there. realizing that Penang roads are rated terrible, is like every km has a hole that make passenger stay awake and users has to drive like a snake to get rid of them...also, no stink smell of trash or waste found everywhere in the island of singapore..unlike penang...sigh. penang must rebrand for its cleanliness and infrastructure, and not only focusing on rapid and mass development. what is the point of being well developed state with great investors but lousy infrastructure and worst environment?

moving on with my life and stay stronger to meet the challenges in life! nothing is impossible :)